Standing Still

I find it very hard to stand still. Final relaxation during yoga is nearly impossible, unless I fall asleep. My mind is constantly going- which is why I'm happiest when I'm busy. I enjoy working, enjoy the feeling of being exhausted at the end of a long day. This summer I'm not working- which I was pretty excited about early on. I'm finding it's not as easy as it seems. I find that I can't just relax. I kind of bumble around my house, trying to find something to occupy myself. I look at the clock a lot. I do feel like I need to take advantage of this time. I want to get better at standing still. Of enjoying moments of peace. I want to get better at creating my own happiness.

I'm a chronic planner. I like every minute to be detailed a week in advance. My goal for the rest of August is to try to go with the flow a little more. Try to find what makes me happy in the moment, as opposed to planning out my happiness in great detail. I want to stop looking at the clock, waiting for Tom to get home, and just enjoy the afternoons as they come. Because come on, by the time September rolls around, I'll be missing these empty and free moments.